It’s been just over a week since the Pittsburgh Half Marathon and the mojo I thought I would find has been mostly non-existent. After a couple days off, I thought I’d get back into it but when the time came to run, I wanted to do everything but, so I did everything but. I felt a little guilty about that and I still kind of do. After training for so long towards a goal I feel like I’m copping out a bit.
Right now my mind, my body, and my soul are all conflicted.
My mind rejects absolutely every idea of running right now. The moment I consider running, my mind revolts it almost instantly. Nope, nope, nope.
My body feels like running is hard. It should feel hard after sitting around doing nothing with it for a week.
My soul looks at races and goals and feels motivated. It looks at previous years’ races results and checks out current year’s competition. It still feels a passion to run and compete.
With Buffalo being a few weeks away and my desire to train being non-existent, I’ve decided to run Buffalo for fun. Two of my cousins are running their first half marathon and I’m going to run with at least one of them! I know Laura enjoyed seeing me cross three Chicago finish line and being there every step of that 4 hours and 20 minutes, and you know what? Maybe I should try that too.
To be honest, I’ve never really run a race for fun… I usually race it at whatever my current fitness level is, which is always me trying to reach the next level and attempt to PR. That’s kind of exhausting and I think partially why I’m kind of miserable right now. I need to find my love of running again.
Truthfully, I’m a little worried about taking a hiatus and running as I please. I feel like it took so much effort to be in realm of sub 8 minutes miles during a half marathon again, but maybe I’m a little crazy. It took me so long to get here because I couldn’t run for 18 months. For crying out loud, I had to run/walk from June 2014 until September 2014! I want even comfortable running 10 miles weeks until January 2015! I really shouldn’t freak out, but I kind of am. And I feel like I’m giving up a little. But honestly, my life is a little stressful and I need to dial back things that stress me out more, which is running right now.
I am however, going to run the 5k Saturday before the race. Last year I passed because I didn’t want to go too hard and put myself in a bad position for the half, but this time? I can do that!
Anybody out there have tips on getting my mojo back?