It’s been a couple weeks since declaring that I’m going to run another marathon. Shockingly, I haven’t changed my mind but instead started to embrace it. It’s no longer, “Should I run another marathon?” or “Should I do a fall or spring marathon?” but “When I run the Carmel Marathon in April…” and it’s all becoming a little more real. I’ve even started to tell people that I’ll be running a marathon in the spring, so I’m basically committed. If only we could finally close on our house so I can open up the checkbook again without feeling guilty, that’d be great. Continue reading Training Hurts.
After the first week with successful, purposeful runs (read: I said I was going to run and actually did it without bailing), I finally felt the drive to dedicate myself to training again. Maybe it is the leaves changing color and the slightly cooler weather reminding me of cross country races, who knows. Last weekend I set out on a fun run in the first day with crisp, Fall weather and all of a sudden it hit me. I knew what I wanted to train towards, not necessarily the race, but definitely the distance. I’m ready for the marathon.
I came home and laughed at myself though. This feeling well disappear in a couple days. In the meantime I appeased myself by looking at potential Spring marathons within driving distance, which to me, is 8 hours or less for a quick trip. I can push for 12 hours for a weeklong vacation. I think Spring is the best for me because I love to do whatever I want in the Summer. Yes, it will be absolutely awful training through Buffalo winters and I hated half marathon training in the winter, but I’m hoping training for a longer, slower race will make it more feasible. Besides, my mind is going to change in a few days anyways. I’m not running a marathon.
I found the Carmel Marathon after looking at few others and headed to Twitter for some local input. Of course, reviews were great and then some friends were all about it. I joked to J about it, “spring marathon?” and he asked if I had enough time to even get ready for that sort of thing since I haven’t been running. Sometimes dating a non-runner had its perks. But don’t worry, I’ll change my mind.
I purchased Hanson’s Marathon Method just to see what it was about. I like reading about training and finding new plans, what’s the harm? Next purchase will likely be a book about training and CrossFit, because I’ll be damned if I have to totally stop doing what has kept me injury free. It doesn’t matter though, I’ll change my mind.
Well, it has been a week and my mind hasn’t changed. I haven’t pulled the trigger and signed up because I’m being careful with spending until we close and buy all the house necessities (budget, what?) but I have the price increase reminder on my phone at the end of October. Mentally, I’ve committed. I’ve told J and friends my plan to do this. I’ve recognized what it’ll mean for my winter… But I think I’m ready to step up again.
So there. Next April, I’m going to run another marathon.
I’m still trying. I’m still trying to get back in the swing of things. I’m failing miserably. But it’s okay. I know how to get myself back at it (sign up for a race) but I haven’t found The Race or felt compelled to really suck it up and just get out there. So in the meantime, here I am just doin’ me. Besides, I would never miss the Lake Effect Half Marathon so likely that’s going to be the It Race back.
Now that it’s been about for months since my hiatus began, I’ve realized somethings have happened.
I drink more coffee.
I’ve been a coffee drinker since student teaching in 2010, but I was the girl who could skip it on weekends or randomly during the week without any issues. Now? Without it, I feel like a zombie. Like that time I tailgated way too hard thinking I was still 19 and went to bed drunk, but had to work Monday on poor drunk sleep.
I sleep more.
Related to the coffee, I sleep so much and still require all the coffee. When I’m training, I expend more energy and feel tired but it’s a different tired. It’s an energized mind, but tired legs and muscles. I sleep from about 11pm to 7am and then come home and nap for about an hour (or 2.5 on Friday). I probably don’t need the sleep but my body doesn’t function well without it anymore.
I gained weight.
I’m not sure if this is a lack of cardio paired with terrible diet weight gain or a #gainz (ha.) weight gain. I feel like my body looks the same, particularly my midsection, which is where any gain usually goes if it isn’t muscle, so maybe the CrossFit is doing things. Plus my biceps and shoulders are looking like I’m relieved it’s still tank top season, but who knows when you’ve put on about 8 lbs. There is a fair chance it’s the combination of the two!
I drink less water.
Because I drink more coffee.
I drink more beer.
I feel less guilty about eating like shit, this includes beer. After a run, I’d enjoy some Nuun and maybe a beer, but not after every run. Plus when I get frustrated, I’d just run it out. Now? Pop the top of whatever craft beer is in my fridge, please.
It’s true. Nailing runs, hitting paces and feeling that sense of accomplishment on race day feels great. But the other things in life make me feel just as good and lately, kind of better. I’m enjoying more time with James, I’m hanging out with friends I normally didn’t because after putting running first, I had to choose between my fam (J and Dunkin) or spending more time away from them. You can guess which I picked.
I’m enjoying the reprieve, though. Which is a huge reason I’m not chomping at the bit to get back out there. Life is a little busy still (hopefully closing on our home in less than a month!) and I’m transitioning over to a new job at the same time so truthfully, even if I did miss the running and hard training, it just isn’t the right time.
Funny story though, the above was written all on Saturday… And now, as of Monday night? I think I found The Race and The Groove is starting to come back, too.